Monday, July 27, 2009

Unexpected Holiday

My little sugar plum was off to visit her grandparents all last week. Fishguy was working all week. I was expecting to work my regular Mon, Tues, Wed, but the enrollment at the daycare has really dropped this summer, so I worked 6.5 hours last Monday and have been off ever since!! I work again tomorrow.

So what, you may ask, have I been up to all week long? Well, without a child around (or a hubby) it is possible to get caught up on all the house work and laundry… and stay there (for a little while anyways!).

Mostly, I’ve been de-cluttering. I cleaned out my closet (it was long overdue) and I cleaned out Sugar-Plum's closet too. She will be arriving home on Thursday with a large addition of new clothes and shoes courtesy of a shopping spree with Grandma, so I just had to clear out the old (and too small) to make room for the new.

I put 2 garbage bags and 2 largish boxes in the trunk of my car to drop off at Community Care on my way to work tomorrow. That felt good!

I also went through all of Sugar Plum’s school work for the year, recycling much of it, and organizing the report cards, awards, special projects etc. into folders to be put into the eventual scrapbook that I have been planning (for about 4 years) to make of all such things!!

I have a tendency to be a huge procrastinator…. More about that later… LOL!

I’ve wanted, for quite a while now to paint the room that I use as my yoga space. It is also the place where all the musical instruments live. This room, I call the studio. Well, this week I actually managed to get started on this project by tearing off all the hideous wall-paper border in that room! Yay!! It’s a start. I also showed Fishguy the paint-chip colour samples that I have selected to paint the room, to which he said, “Nice!”.

Are my colour choices obvious enough?
Next step: go and buy the paint. I’ll keep you posted on how that goes.

Anyways, besides cleaning, laundry, closet-purging and organizing, recycling, border removal, paying bills and filing receipts, I did manage to fit several non-householdy activities in as well.

  • Yoga every day (day 100 is tomorrow!!!)
  • Guitar playing and singing every day
  • Raspberry picking
  • Visited a couple of friends for tea
  • Had a lovely dinner out with Fishguy on Saturday night
  • Watched some movies
  • Went for a swim
  • Read some of Sugar Plum's Library books
  • Read Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (almost done)
  • Journal Writing
  • Blog Writing
  • Listening to music
  • Just hanging out at home being happily introverted!!

Not a bad way to spend an unexpected stay-cation. Incidentally, I consider this list to double as my graditude list for this week!!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Transformation Inevitable

This beauty is the reason we intentionally keep milkweed in the yard at the River House. While beautiful, even in its larval stage, this creature will soon become a magnificent Monarch Butterfly. Plus, the flower produced by this so-called weed, is also quite lovely.
I'm feeling a lot like a caterpillar these days, steadily munching away on my diet of yoga, guitar playing and singing.
I've been working on intentionally living my bliss (with the encouragement of this lady).
And in doing so I've learned:
  • not to care quite so much about what others think
  • to be more conscious of my daily choices and how they affect my bliss and energy
  • that I have more self discipline than I've ever given myself credit for
  • that I am able to recognize and overcome negative self talk (the divas) more frequently (um, see the previous post for more on this)
  • to be less hard on myself
  • to be more open and loving

In further examining my intentions, I've found that:

  • I practice contentment, regardless of my situation (even when the divas are present)
  • When truly unhappy with my situation, I have the power to CHANGE it
  • It is my purpose to spread and reflect light to all beings
  • Singing is my bliss and I intend to live that every day

I still need to work a bit more on my list of intentions but in practicing contentment with where I am at, I'm not too stressed about it. I also see that the journey is where the joy is, it's not at the culmination of any list making project I take on.

And while transformation is inevitable, the caterpillar is just as lovely as the butterfly!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Before and After

This is my paradise. I call it, The Healing River.

Me, feeling like a pathetic loser
before swimming in the Healing River.

Me, feeling all blissed out
after swimming in the Healing River.

Last Friday, I was having One Of Those Days. You know, kinda blue. It was just one of those days when I was feeling blah, unfocused, ugly, stupid, useless, scattered, in pain (lower back), in pain (emotional negativity), unworthy, uneducated, dark and gloomy, sad, pathetic and just generally all around "less" than good enough.

It was cool and overcast outside. I moped around the house most of the day. Spent too much time on the computer (aggravating my lower back pain). Then skipped my guitar playing (due to lower back pain). Then did a little more yoga (to alleviate lower back pain). Which gave me enough of a sense of peace that I realised I needed to do something to pull myself out of my funk.

Finally three o'clock rolls around and Sugar Plum and I leave the house to meet Fishguy at the River. I packed my guitar and journals and paints, hoping to put them to use once we were there.

I start to feel better just driving there. We arrive and step out of the car. Inhaling deeply, I feel the contentment mingled with pine and cedar enter my being.
I dive into the River and I am home!

The River washes me clean, clearing away all that darkness and doubt. The smell of the River takes me back... to when I was a child.
Back to when I swam all day and played on the beach and buried myself in the sand and then baked in the sun on a warm towel.
Back to when I sang songs and wrote poems without a thought to whether they were "any good" or not.
Back to a time before I was twelve and gradually came to hide myself away.
After that delightful swim, I felt back at centre and played my guitar for about an hour, did a little journaling and a little painting. I went home feeling rejuvenated and renewed and brought along with me, some new ideas for some stories and songs involving Dragonflies on the River.
The rest of my week since that day has been up and down. But that River is only about 20 minutes away....
I have a song or two about that place. It holds a special place in my heart for many reasons.
Does anyone else have a special place that they can go to be "truly home" ?

Friday, July 3, 2009

Summer's Here And the Time is Right...

~for 100 days of Guitar playing (minimum 30 minutes) every day!

~singing every day too... goes without saying

~swimming in the River as much as Possible! (2-3 days/week)

~berry picking!

~attending (rather than facilitating) a yoga class

~weekly trips to the Riverview Park and Zoo


~daily yoga (today is day 75!!)

~dancing in the street (I'll find any opportunity I can!!)

Happy Summer to All!!!!